Crazy

Last night, I asked her to marry me when we meet. I don't know why. I meant it, but as I think about it more, its beginning to scare me.
She said one bite at a time, thank god. I dont know what came over me there, but I do want a life with her.
Weve both admitted we have our problems. But at least we know them. So far, our relationship has been nearly secretless, completely open and trusting,.

"It's weird. Using your name, that is. Going from saying Dirkpitt for months, and suddenly changing it to Dan. Then again, i guess alot of things have changed, huh?I know that you think i'll never understand how much you love me, but i do. I just like to be oblivious to it sometimes. Makes the headaches ease up a bit. No offense to you, of course.I'm also aware of how much you hate me disagreeing with you on the "beautiful" and such things. Don't be mad (if you are, that is). It's just one of those things that you grow up hearing all your life, and when someone tries and change what you know, it's hard to let go. But, i guess you already know that about me from the L word.Yes, i'm going to keep referring to it that way. I might already admit to loving you, which i do, but i'm still shy about saying it other than that. Again, bad habit.I'm not sure when or if i'll ever tell my friends about you. It was hard enough trying to explain that to Katy, my bestest friend-almost sister, and she understands everything about me. So, i don't know if my other friends would handle it. I just hope that when or if they find out, they'll be happy for me. Which, i'm sure they would be.I'm keeping you to your promise about October 25th. No matter what happens, one of us is buying a one way ticket. That's the only promise i ask for you to keep.Thanks for being here.Love,Mo "

She wrote that. Sometimes I wonder if she means it. I think she shows it, but you never know, right?
On august 8th, shes leaving. Wont talk to her most likely, sept maybe a few times, but itll be back to the crappy computer.
This part touched me:
Her mother, who she absolutely hates... Shes going to try to go to her house as much as she can, so she can talk to me. I got a bit choked up. Its overwhelming to know that somebody loves me so much, and the fact that its mo just drives me crazy.