Losing

Ive lost 2 friends from this. A few guys I know off the internet, thought we were friends, then they turned around and laughed.
One of them went so far as to say after 3 months, we would be over, and he would laugh.
Yeah right.
Today, Mo told me she was saving her first kiss for me. Tears hit me.
Her fantasy: she wants to have her first kiss to be in the rain. As I think about it, its rather romantic, adding the crashing and feeling of being soaked to the romance of the first kiss. Im saving mine too.
I always tell her, I don't deserve her, and that shes stuck with me. She thinks its my low self esteem talking, but its really just the fact that theres no guy on this earth that deserves her. It heartens me, knowing she thinks I come pretty close.
Love you, mo.